I feel quite a lot of resentment towards you right now.
Because I feel used.
Because of the fact that, as I understood from your messages, this thought had been at the back of your mind for a long time, so you could have brought it up any of the times that you came over. And knowing that you were thinking this the whole time, makes me feel ever more like an idiot.
Finally, because of how you handled it. It was just really upsetting and inconsiderate. I understand that it feels liberating to finally say what has been on your mind for so long, but I feel like you just didn’t think about me at all in that moment. To suddenly receive these texts out of nowhere while I was in the middle of hosting a party for people, just meant that I couldn’t even process it and that I didn’t know what to do with myself. And the fact that you couldn’t wait and then come over, and talk about this in person, but rather just wrote these throw-away facebook messages is painful.
When you’ve become attached to someone and you care a lot about them, to realise that they don’t really give a damn about you just fucking hurts.
So I’m sorry, if I’m not feeling particularly friendly at the moment.